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  You know when sometimes something seems like a good idea in your mind, and then you know maybe it’s not, but then you justify it somehow?   Maybe part of it was when you were not in your right mind, but maybe part of it you knew what you were doing and that maybe you really shouldn’t do it. But you think it’s okay, and you rationalize it, and you even convince yourself it’s good, and the other person likes it. But then you realize that, maybe you’ve misread the situation. I’m trying to be vague here. Even though a blog is kind of an online journal. Which, I do journal, writing helps me process things, it always has. Maybe I don’t journal enough, apparently. I don’t know. I think, if the dream was an accurate barometer of the actual state of things between me and this other person, I hurt them. And I am sorry for that. I will stop the behavior that hurt them. I really, in my head, had rationalized that they actually liked it. You just convince yourself of what you want to...

  He was so cute! He had a winsome smile. He was taller than me, but not too tall. He was black. He had a tatoo and I can’t remember what it said. There’s so much I don’t remember that I wish I had thought to ask. I don’t even know why he was in the hospital. And he said he had a daughter, or was I confused? He did come in with a busted up lip. It was healed by the time we left. A few times when we went to the common area, he grabbed a deck of cards, and he’d start picking one and telling me my future! I was in awe, because I’d never played cards like that before… that’s how he told me we would have two kings. We were going to have three kids, a girl and two boys, but something happened and then it was just two boys. The rooms did a little loop around the nurses station, and we would walk around the loop a lot. And now I don’t remember if he told me what he told me the second or third day or what. But, the first time he told me, he had been crucified many times, stoned to death...

    Did you know that we are in Ramadan, the Muslim holy month, right now? I’m not sure if it always overlaps with Easter, but there is an interesting contrast in comparing Islam’s path of redemption to Christianity. Do versus Done. Muslims fast for 30 days during this time, from sun up to sun down. It’s a lot harder to do than you realize, sustaining a partial fast. But, they are doing these things to atone for their sins. They make a lifelong trip to Mecca. They give alms. They do their best to make Allah happy. They try as hard as they can to earn their way to paradise. Christians, however, recognize, we cannot earn our way into eternal salvation. We are flawed sinners, unrighteous and unholy, and there is nothing we can do to change that. We do not rest on our efforts at righteousness to carry us to heaven. We do rest on the finished work of Christ on the cross, who took the penalty for our sins and paid the price for us. I was reading in Leviticus this morning a...