Removing the Barriers to Healing

 Last night I went to Joy's free session of applying her book to your life and deliverance. While I think some friends would appreciate the teaching she shared, most would be way turned off by the deliverance part... particularly the part where some are throwing up their demons, it's gross, there's no other way to put it. I think though for people who've never needed deliverance to that extent, it's easy for them to sit back and say it's all fake. It's not. There really are spirits leaving the person being delivered. And they do cause the person to sway and vibrate and sometimes gag and throw up. Think about it, if a spirit has hidden away in a person for years, they are stubborn and not willing to go, and it takes force to expel them out. Thankfully I wasn't in this group, but I was prepared to throw up if I needed to. I didn't eat dinner. 

Joy taught on Exodus mostly, and went through Exodus 20 as a roadmap of deliverance. The story of Israel from Egypt to the Promised Land is very much our deliverance story as well. What I'm not always prepared for is what Joy calls the backlash. Pharoah is pissed when Israel leaves Egypt and fires up his army and goes after them. The same way satan doesn't like us to get free and attacks to try to bring us back into bondage. It is idols that most of the time allow demons into our lives. Israel takes the promised land little by little, battle by battle, just as we claim our lives back the same way. I used to think deliverance would happen all at once, and that's why I was going everywhere to try to get help, I didn't think it worked when the demons kept attacking. I just need help maintaining my freedom and claiming my authoriyy in Christ. I need to remember who, and who's, I am. 

One woman last night told me that God said, I am not invisible. Joy led me in prayer to forgive my father. Another woman last night told me to really sing praise and worship music, that there has been breakthrough and God has good plans for me, but I still need healing. And I've gotten the message I need to protect and guard my relationship with Christ, even if it means I'm tired and sleepy when I pray, get up and bring a sacrifice of praise. SEEK like never before. 

I passed on a free one on one deliverance session with Joy, mostly because I was tired and had to drive back to WS and it was late. My head has been swimming lately the past week. So many thoughts have gone through my mind. 

I do feel like God is calling me to some things I've wanted to do but haven't felt equipped or gifted in those arenas. We'll see. 

One idea I'm tossing around in my head is to be a life coach, and work specifically with women caregivers. I'm teasing a lot of ideas out in my head. It sounds cool, but I don't even know what it would take to have my own business like that. I do know the need is there. I'd hire a coach to help me but I ain't got no money! And I don't really believe in those schools you can go to to get certified... that really doesn't mean much of anything. 

There's other stuff going on but I'll let it be a surprise. Obviously I can't do it all, I've run the gammet of ideas the past month. But... God will give me clarity on the steps He wants me to take and the path He wants me to pursue. 

I got four copies of Joy's book last night, and it will be interesting to see the response of everyone I give it to!  One person isn't getting hers right now, I think it would end our friendship then and there. 

Please do pray for me to get some rest. I've been rudely awaken by nightmares/witchcraft attack, the past few nights, and my sleep is all off.  In one dream, there were four people who pulled off their faces to show they were really ugly scary goblins. It makes me wonder, are there people in my life I think are friends but are actually foes?  Who?  And one dream was too gross to write about, I want to know what it meant but it's graphic. and then Allie Beth Stuckey was in a dream talking to my mom about working for her! I was like, Allie, do you know what you're talking about?  I'm falling asleep now and I need to cook dinner. I think I am going to start a new blog though. This one can't be used for professional reasons, people would think I'm completely off my rockers!  Hahahahaha. We'll keep that number of people who know me that well on the lower end, okay?  When I decide on it I'll make a post.