Where do I go from here?

 So... I feel like the original intent of this blog was to help me process my time in the hospital, with Antonio, etc. I think I was going to explore another book also, but... I'm on another project entirely, actually, and I could use your prayers for it. It is good though. I just, I started strong and now I've gotten distracted and I need to regain my focus so I can get it done. I'll let you know when it's ready, but, just say a prayer for me about it. 

Anyhow... I thought about ending the blog again, I don't know why I end one and start another but my brain does. I'm sure I'll do that soon enough, but I may just still randomly write on here to get thoughts out. 

I just need time management. Easier said that done. Well, I know how.  But... sometimes when others are involved things don't go as planned, as everyone knows. 

I went to a conference last weekend, it was good... it was funny there were three different speakers, all good, but not a unified theme at all. But the main speaker spoke about Hope in the Wilderness. She talked about Israel wandering 40 years in the desert, complaining and struggling to trust God the whole time. It wasn't supposed to take 40 years. But that generation was short sited in what God could do, even after the miracles they'd seen as God delivered them from Egypt. They were at Canaan's borders and whining to go back to Egypt. No wonder God was insulted. He freed them. It shows something about human nature though. Overall, people crave safety over freedom. That's why our society is shifting towards socialism and communism and the state taking care of people. Most people are scared of the freedom because they might fail. We saw it with these stupid vaccines, people succumbed to the "safety" of the needle, even if they didn't really want to, because they had to for work - job safety/security, instead of fighting for their medical and religious freedoms. Anyhow, that's one of many reasons the US is crumbling. 

 I can whine just as much as Israel though. Why is it so hard for us to remember what God has done for us?  This actually may be a good argument for every Christian to write down their testimony or autobiography to trace what God has done in their life. 

Anyhow... the wilderness doesn't last forever, thankfully. But, I guess in your time there, God burns out a lot of impurities in you. I just wish being there wasn't so testing and painful. 

Well... I'll try to post regularly, but it'll probably just be random thoughts I've had from my quiet time or something... although the news sometimes triggers me, which is why I just don't watch it 99% of the time, when I'm in the room and mom has it on, I want to say something back to every sentence uttered on that stupid box. I limit myself because I'll drive mom crazy. But the lies, the absolute absurd lies on that box, and people believe it! Maybe I'll post again about the TV, but I don't have time right now. Besides the information's out there. All I'll say now is, Operation Mockingbird is STILL going STRONG. 

Alright, until the next post, be blessed in the Lord.