Drugs Interfere with Deliverance

 

I’ve been told and led to believe for many years now that depression is caused by chemical imbalances in the brain, and antipsychotic medications help balance things out.  So in the past week when this theory has been shown as obsolete, it’s certainly made my brain spin.

I hate taking my meds. I don’t believe in them, never wanted to take them in the first place. I should have continued to refuse the pills, and forced them to give me shots. That’s what Antonio said, because you don’t get a shot willingly, it’s forced on you. Anyhow, the first time I went to the hospital in 2009 I refused my meds for a good week I think before people convinced me to take them. Because they thought the medications were for my good.

The word for sorceries in Revelation is actually pharmakia.  Where we get the word pharmacy and pharmaceuticals and all the derivatives of the word from. At first I thought it just applied to the vaccine industry, specifically these covid shots. Then when I went to the hospital February 2021, I realized how bad psychotropic meds are for you as well. They are dangerous to your spiritual walk.

I was very manic at that point in February, but… two nights before I went into the hospital, God prepared me to write my poem, my revelation. I remember thinking about what I was going to write that day and at dinner and while cleaning up the kitchen, and getting mom in bed just wanting to be done so I could go write.

I wrote so rapidly, all night long, but it didn’t seem that long, the words just flowed out of me, and then surprised me! But when I got to the end, it was 6:00 am, and I realized I hadn’t taken my meds that night, and I thought, I’m okay, I’m better out without them!

But I got sent to the hospital two days later.

I refused my meds for a day, and it would have been longer, but Antonio said just take your meds, and I didn’t want to, but he was like, it’s just a vitamin, and I didn’t know if he knew what all I was on, but I just took them.  I supposed if I hadn’t, I would have been up there much longer. Which was fine, I was having fun, being amused that God kept confirming my identity.

But my meds have the tendency to knock me out.  Especially if I’m on trazodone. And I took serotonin. I’m off those now, thank God. It actually is a miracle I’m falling asleep without heavy medication. My meds I take do have some sedative effects, but not nearly as strong as with the trazodone. At least I’m not on seroquil anymore. I was taking a dose high enough to knock out a horse for years! I don’t know how I functioned! No wonder I would fall asleep all the time regardless of my bed time. I’m telling you, these meds screw you up.

The problem with meds knocking you out is, sometimes, particularly with spirit husband, you need to be awake, and able to stand up for a long time, even all night if necessary, to resist their attack.

With spirit husband, you need a strong resolve that you aren’t going to let them wreak havoc in your life anymore. And you need stamina. If you can’t get out of bed, they’re going to…

So, I have very much many frustrations with meds, and with my mom who forces me to take them. Sometimes, I feel like in the spiritual, she’s a strongman. She forces the meds down my throat and keeps me paralyzed in the battle.

I don’t want to go back to the hospital though, especially now that my insurance has changed and I’d go to Forsyth instead of Baptist. I loved Baptist, it’s hands down better than Forsyth. But the partial hospitalization program you’d go to after the hospital is Novant only, not Baptist, and so I was forced to choose the hospital I don’t like just in care I need the partial hospitalization program. Anyhow, going to the psych ward again seems dangerous. Particularly because I’m not in the best place spiritually. I’m discouraged and down and feeling defeated. The last place you want to be is the hospital when your like that.

Without my meds, I have a high chance of becoming manic.  I’ve been manic a few times before, twice in a really high elated happy state, but at least once in a fearful, anxious, crazy state. But all of my hospitalizations are religious experiences, either when I’m close to God or feeling the flames of hell. Last February was maybe a high point, but I do remember the worst hospitalization where I was freaking out about demons having sex with me. Now I know that… it was true. It was true, that demons were tormenting me. And it was true that, the meds and treatment at the program could do nothing to help me with that battle. I didn’t need a psych ward, I needed deliverance.

I think this has really frustrated me, knowing what I know now, with the churches I’ve always been a part of. The assumption is that Christians cannot have demons. I remember Beth Moore saying that at a conference I went to after college, so back in 2004, she just said, demons cannot dwell with the Holy Spirit. Which, basically kept me confused and scared and panicked for many years when I knew I had demons, it made me second guess my salvation and my sanity. I’ve been walking with Jesus since middle school, maybe even younger. Well, I became a Christian in third grade but I think it was really middle school when I grasped having a relationship with God. Anyhow, there is no verse in the Bible that says Christians can’t have demons.  And don’t give me the oppressed versus possessed word, because those words are not in the Bible, in the Greek, they are made up in American Christianity. I’m going to post Isaiah Salvidar’s arguments here for you to skip through, and I’ll link his video. Actually, I’ll post them at the end of this post.

Anyhow… this is all to say, Christians can have demons, I know because I’ve been haunted by them for years, I’m not crazy because of it I need deliverance help not freakin meds, meds are counteractive in the spiritual battle, and I don’t know why so many churches are not casting out demons of people needing it!  Of course, there are some churches that don’t know the difference between the Holy Spirit and evil spirits and look all kinds of crazy. (I’m thinking of Bethel church, but Bethel from all I’ve read and heard, is a cult.)

But I have become more and more convinced that most mental health issues are demons.

So, for me, I’m dealing with my frustration, but some aren’t so lucky. Some are so trapped by their meds they will be in bondage for the rest of their lives.

Last February, the night I got to the hospital, I met a young woman, and I could see she had demons and wanted to be free. So… I tried to coach her but I was getting to loud and I didn’t want to get a shot, so I had to pray for her. I gave her a note and told her to refuse her meds though… I think. She tried, but the nurses were too strong. The strongman had her bound. I think she didn’t like me after that, because she saw I was free and happy. She looked brainwashed. Something in her eyes, they just looked glazed over and weird. She was wearing two masks at a time, good Lord one is bad enough and you know I was refusing that silly thing every chance I could. I think I made it the longest time in the hospital not wearing a mask!

Sometimes she would come out of her room into the common area and start slithering on the ground. Sometimes she would start to take off her clothes. The nurses would be like, Go back to your room, stop that, stop seeking attention, and I was watching like, really, yall can’t see demons when they’re blatantly in front of you?  But I wasn’t allowed to do deliverance. I felt so sad for her.

At one point I heard her say, “but I didn’t mean to kill him!” And I was like, whoa, she’s got serious things, demons, raging inside if she killed someone. That’s no joke.

I wrote her a note, and I don’t know why I didn’t give it to her, but I feel led to share it here. I haven’t looked at it since last February, maybe something I wrote would encourage me.

    Girl I think I can read your mind I’m with you friend you see you do GOD LOVES YOU CLAIM IT NOW PLEASE We are needing SAINTS AWAKE NO MEDS NO MORE NO TOUCH NO NO Good grief those poison pills we’ve been brainwashed because we are so powerful we have a gift they envy so they mute it. They can’t have Holy Ghost Power But I know you FEEL it in YOUR BONES SISTER AND WANT But these Meds I HATE THE PILLS. Say NO REFUSE. YOU HAVE A STRONG BATTLE IF IT'S BEEN 100 YEARS. I don’t know what this will take you know, don’t know how much puking demons out has to happen. Pray for wisdom to know how to keep going and just go let go. I’d love to help more promise but they won’t let the know we’ve got deliverance in our BONES CLAIM IT FRIEND. IT’S SO HARD THEY did get us up I know. Don’t listen to strongman he will get his… can’t yet. But if he says X say NO NO NO I REFUSE I HAVE CHOICE. YOU DO HAVE CHOOSE TODAY DON’T DELAY. I’m FEELING it mighty revival friend it’s comine we want to see it! Oh my goodness girl who are you? Those demons knew many years ago that’s why they had to poison so with meds you don’t mess with God’s Temple! AND INCUBUS SPIRIT YOU CAN REBUKE AND REPROVE You can claim Victory because of Jesus’ mighty name. He is way more powerful THERE IS POWER MIGHTY IN THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST GIRL  REPENT You let it in what was your sin Lust perverse thoughts don’t know ask Holy Ghost to show. He can empower You. You have to refuse these meds BAD MEDISIN YOU ARE SO POWERFUL I FEEL IT I WANT TO SEE A TESTIMONY A MIGHTY DELIVERANCE FRIENDS. REPENT SO REVIVAL WILL COME. Just repent away sorry my sin my filth my nasty Lord forgive. THIS IS HARD I know you want but feel too weak. So refuse your meds. You’ll get POWERFUL. Your eyes WILL SEE SCRIPTURE ALIVE. I SEE SOME CRAZY NIGHTS AHEAD so we need all hands on deck, I am getting wilder in my bones You are too I know. I have to be undercover praying for you like crazy because stupid strongman knows I’ve SEEN DR STELLA IMMANUEL YOUTUBE VIDEOS! REPENT AND PLEAD GOD’S MERCY LORD HAVE MERCY O MY SOUL HE KNOWS HE KNOWS HE KNOWS BUT HIS MERCIES FLOW. Keep fighting. O my goodness I hate meds and I hate strongman. I’LL PRAY GIRL THEY MAN I WAS JUST DELIVERED MYSELF REJECT MEDS YOU TOOK VOMIT UP GET EM UP JUST PUKE THESE SILLY DEMONS OUT I SO WANT TO SHOUT YOU HAVE TO. DON’T LISTEN TO STRONGMAN NO REBUKE THAT IDIOT STRONGMAN NOW. REPENT CONFESS SIN BEFORE A HOLY GOD. You are a sinner silly. Good news He knows and forgives crazy. HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH GIRL YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO FIGHT LOUT AND SHOUT AND THEY’LL SAY QUIET they know who you are dear and can’t handle the power. Girl who are you? BE STRONG. ARE YOU NEEDING HEY. I see you. They know I’m praying for you and if I put on a show they’ll pump in meds and I don’t want NO NO SAY NO REJECT MEDS FOR THIS BATTLE don’t swallow. Or just say no YOU NEED TO BE AWAKE. YOU ARE FIGHTING FOR YOUR LIFE. PLEASE FRIENDS YOU NOW SEE CLEARLY THINGS I KNOW -COVID TEST NO NO MASK NO NO YOU. PROPHET CAN’T TOUCH CAN’T SIN AND SUCH. TODAY IS SUNDAY. SUPERBOWL. Was going to dry fast but then thought maybe starving to death silly. CRAZY. NUTTY. Oh. Ohhhh. Ohhhh hoo hoo hoooooo.

    Tell ALEX JONES HELLO THANK YOU – SILLY.

Well that was fun to type up. Sorry it was actually like one long run on sentence, stream of consciousness so not really easy to read. I can hear it in my mind loud as when I wrote it. Part of me wonders if I’ve kept this note for me, this whole time.

 

Man.  I was so high, SOOOOOOOOOOO high. Leading up to going into the hospital, I got a little obsessed with John the Baptist, he might have been my favorite prophet, I mean there are so many cool ones I love, but John had some flair going on with the wardrobe and dietary observances. But I just think he was so funny, what a hoot, I can’t wait to ask him about it!  And I realized John had this public ministry but he also had a private ministry as well, there’s so much not written in the Bible I want to learn as well. And, I was like, for my public ministry I am going to put on a show. So I put on this … special… long skirt, long to my toes, it was burgundy with yellow flowers… (looking at it now I wonder why I liked it but it spoke to me at that time.) and I put on this gray sweater with flannel at the edges, and then I put on this special ear covering that is bright pink that my friend Megan made for me, and a brown hat that says Pure in pink on it. And I was going to go to a public place with a sign that said FREE HUGS and be like a pit preacher and give hugs to everyone scared of COVID. I actually wish I had done this. It But I wore this outfit to the hospital, thinking I’d get to wear it and be silly in the psych ward, ohhh I wanted to be silly. But I restrained myself from it.

 

The rest will have to be another post, it’s too late. But these are Isaiah Saldivar’s points about Christians having demons if you didn’t watch the video I posted.

1. If deliverance is not necessary any longer where did all the demons go? They were there when Jesus was around did they leave when the apostles died?

2. You believe we should obey what Jesus told the disciples to, except for when it comes to casting out demons, what else should we not obey that Jesus clearly said to do.

3. Jesus told the disciples in Matthew 28 to "Teach them to obey everything I commanded of you". Did He mean everything but casting out demons?

4. Where does the Bible say demons leave when someone gets saved?

5. If Christians can’t have demons how can they have a sickness, which the Bible makes clear can come from a demon.

6.If Christians cant have demons what is the point of casting out demons? Wouldn't you just get people saved, and the demons automatically leave?

7.Why did Phillip cast out demons in Acts 8 after they heeded his message, shouldn't he just have lead everyone to Christ and their demons would automatically leave?

8.Do you know any legitimate deliverance ministers that actually believe Christians cant have demons?

9.Can you show one verse in all of the bible that says a Christians can't have a demon? (Without using 2 Corinthians 6:15 is about partnering with unbelievers, and 1 Corinthians 6:19 is about sexual sin. Neither verse is about Christians having demons).

10.Paul says if you have anger, you give place to the devil, (Ephesians 4:27) where does the devil go if you give him a place?

11. If Christians cant have demons, how did satan fill Anania's heart (Acts 5) after being filled with the holy spirit in Acts 4.

12. Satan entered Judas; he was an apostle but not a Christian?

13. do you have one Bible instance where demons left when someone got saved?

14.do you have any scripture to show deliverance is not for born-again believers?

15.If deliverance isn't for believers wouldn’t the demons come back 7 times worse?

16.If you don’t cast demons out of believers, who do you do deliverance on?

17.Why do you think it’s ok to pick and choose which of Jesus' commands we obey?

18.Why don’t you accept the testimony of Christians who say they were delivered after they were saved?

19.Can you give one verse showing how deliverance changes after Pentecost? 20.When did the demons from your unsaved life ever come out

21. Can you show in the Greek language the difference between oppressed and possessed?

22. Can you show one place a demon was only on someone and not in someone? Did Jesus ever cast demons off of people?

23. Can you show one place in scripture that casting out demons was only for the apostles?

24. Mark 16 says all who believe will cast out demons. Does that verse no longer apply to us, and if so where does the Bible say that no longer applies?

25. The only method in scripture of getting demons out of people was casting them out. If we are not supposed to do that today. What is the method, according to scripture, to get demons out of people.