A fascinating Text Conversation with Megan before I went to the hospital Feb 2021

 

I did not want to go to the hospital.

Well, I didn’t think I needed to go. I seemed totally fine to me. Sure I hadn’t slept enough, but I was off my meds two days and feeling great!  The hospital is dangerous, with covid tests and covid vaccines and masks… oh my I was scared to death to go that February. I kept putting it off, mom was like, Cathy can bring you, I was like, no no. Then I thought, Yolanda! I could go stay with her and blog and then who knows, but I didn’t really want to go to the hospital. You can’t blog from the hospital. I was just really really scared to go. So I asked Yolanda to come get me.  Mom told Yolanda she’d take me to the hospital. So… it didn’t go as planned.

A few days before, I was being a little bit silly, like I can be, and I was doing something outside and I knew God was telling me I’m a nut! I don’t know how, I didn’t hear an audible voice, I just knew. And I was excited about my new name, nut!  So I texted my friend Megan, because Megan’s new name is Lily, and she got her new name years ago and I forget the story, but, she’s the only friend I have who has a new name, so I wanted to tell her my new name! 

 

“Lily!  I’m a nut!

I’m confused

😊 I think that’s my new name nut. I’m an acorn but God just call me my since I’m so nutty in my brain

Nut!

Megan! I’m a prophet! I’m the weird and crazy John the Baptist type who does weird things like give free hugs and gives away meals when I buy CFA and then realize I’m fasting and go give it away.

I like being a nut!

I laugh and God laughs at me so we just laugh together

I’ve never done normal well and certainly want nothing to do with “new normal”! I preferred ministering as a psych ward patient I wasn’t crazy I was sent there to pray for the chaplain last summer…

And when no one knew what I was saying in 2009 God did! He liked my ideas!

I’m very creative!

I’m a nut prophet that’s… I’m a mess I can’t think straight about much except Jesus right now! I can’t even do a job because my brain isn’t right! I’m a big picture person we’re all nutty and crazy I just didn’t see my calling.

God was trying to tell me that in 2009… but no one wanted to hear conspiracy to scary ☹

It is scary! Being like John the Baptist when you might lose your head! There I go being nutty again 😊

You have to have a good sense of humor! I bet he’s got  a lot of funny stories!

John the Baptist wasn’t doubting Jesus he knew he was about to die and he wanted his cousin to assure him that things would be okay!

I gave a prophecy and a warning to a friend – will keep praying for her… I tend to use pictures and books because I’m very fond of reading and research and studying

Huh I gave Lena all my books I need to talk to her somehow… I’m going to have to do some kind of ministry on FB I think - then you’ll know how nutty I am… I’ve got words and books and scriptures for everyone it seems

I don’t want to be normal! I’m happy as a nut! It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks anyway why not have fun and be crazy like me! And no one from home town recognizes me! Y’all just think I’m crazy but really I’m a nut!

               What are those around you saying?

Haha well… I don’t know what my new pastor or church thinks about me… but you know I left Trinity because I felt they were doing false teaching with enneagram. I’ve been so angry at Derek he’s a stubborn fool and w’'re praying it out and God is going to have to slap him silly about this stupid enneagram        

I sent him a book and a letter he’d better repent or I’m posting about him on my blog!

And I sent Amanda the books she needs to get into action I think

An you know me I couldn’t resist it – I sent a book to Alexandra too!

I want to do crazy things… I thinkg I’m supposed to actually that’s what prophets do they say repent

My little manic brain won’t be quiet!

I have a message to the American church! I don’t know where or how to post a video but… it’s gotta come out soon I need to practice… (don’t worry it’s just scripture…)

My mom’s never understood me. I don’t know when you’re called to prophecy you have to do it!

It was envy that did me in… I’m such an idiot if I’d stopped envying Alexandra’s ministry I’d have one of my own

It unleashed the stupid spirit husband… and cursed me. I’ve had seasons of breakthrough but then sin catches me back but this is my year of deliverance!

Breaking all curses. Free in Christ! Mighty warrior nut acorn.

Nut really does fit me huh?

               This is Jordan. Stacy we love you and are really concerned. You need to get some help.

Haha don’t mind me I’m just doing my nut thing! You’ll see!

Feb 4, 2021 3:31 pm

Nutella! 😊 Dr. Stella! I would love to be an awesome mighty prayer warrior like her!

               Feb 4, 2021 5:56

               Would you go to the hospital for fluids? 

               Tonight?

               Please?

I broke fast and have had some chicken broth

Will call psychiatrist in am

               Is that what you and your mom agreed on?

Yeah mom doesn’t think I need to go tonight

               Okay

               Hey. Your mom just reached out to me. She says you need to get to the hospital now. You need to go.

Why? I need my friend Yolanda to take me. But you must realize that I never intend to take meds again! Unless hydroxychloroquine and zinc good grief who knows what the heck they’ve been doing with vaccines this whole time! I’m off manic moment… people just scared they don’t understand. They’ve never known this type of thing.

So I fear I will be trapped in hospital forever

               Your mom talked to Richard Mayes this morning. He said you need to go now.

               Like NOW

So… that was my text convo with Megan those few days!  I wish you could understand how happy I was! I was so free! I wonder if I will ever get back to that state. I have hated meds from the beginning, see. People don’t understand what I mean when I say they hinder you in fighting spiritual battles. I’m convinced that most of what we see as schizophrenia and bipolar and mental illness is actually demons. I don’t know anyone else who thinks like that. But I don’t know anyone else who’s had demons and gone through deliverance.  (I’m sure I know others with demons… they would never say they had demons but, they did.) Anyhow… I’m dreaming of a day without meds, when I no longer live with my mom…