Books I'm going to write as I get it together...

 

So I have two different book ideas (more than that but two I’m thinking of like now) and I can’t decide what to commit to writing first. My first book idea is about prayer and suffering. How one can use prayer as an invitation to join in Christ’s suffering. I’ve thought about this book many years. I’m not sure I can write a whole book on it, I mean, I don’t know. But, I’ve done a mind map… not an outline yet though. I’d like to write it but, my views on suffering have changed, and I’m not sure how it would impact the book.

My other book I would like to write is a memoir. Which could also be fun to write. But… the part where I find complete deliverance hasn’t happened yet.

I’m going to flesh things out on this blog. Try to put my thoughts down on paper. Like… suffering. No suffering is wasted to the Lord. But now I’m convinced there may be suffering unnecessarily. Like… I’ve been persuaded that actually it is God’s will to heal all the time. The problem isn’t God, it’s us. We put barriers in between us and God and the barriers prevent His healing power from working. There are many barriers… but this book I read, Removing the barriers to Healing by Joy Wilburn, it lays it all out, and she gives examples over the whole book of when she’s prayed with people for healing, the barrier they dealt with, and their miraculous healing. It’s really cool to read.

The first barrier to healing is unbelief. If you don’t believe God can heal you, well, you won’t get healing. This would be my mom’s first barrier. I asked her a few weeks ago if she prayed for God to heal her anymore, and she said, yea right. She probably doesn’t pray for healing anymore. It’s been so long she’s accepted it as her lot in life. Also I know she has generational curses going on in her family. There may be more barriers. But, I’ve got to pray with her for healing. I know it. I let someone borrow my book, but when I get it back I’m going to have it out with mom, have a prayer meeting, and see what happens. Without faith it is impossible to please God, right?  I have to step out in faith as well, right?   

I think I’ve also hesitated thinking my demons would interfere. So my deliverance is an integral part of my testimony.

So… I think both books I need some resolution for to finish well, and it’s hard to write without the end in sight. I can write what I can though.

I am discouraged because recently I dreamed and one night I drank wine, and another night I drank beer, and drinking alcohol in your dreams is not good at all, so much witchcraft. I wonder, what witches do I know? Why are they picking on me? I didn’t bother them! But, if I am supposed to be someone who is mighty in the Lord, of course they would attack me and try to prevent that from happening. I fear their attacks work when I feel so distant from the Lord and am not spending enough time alone with Him every day. I fear something has knocked the fight out of me spiritually.

Anyhow… these are my thoughts for now about the books. I’m sure I’ll write more thoughts about them going forward. So, I may have some better blog posts in the near future.