Deliverance and Revelations

 

Last weekend was quite an experience. Lots of praising and praying VERY VERY LOUDLY… good, interesting teaching… but sadly, I did not experience full deliverance.

I did start to vomit, and gagged a few times, but then I stopped short of getting it all out. I wanted to, but… that didn’t happen.

I’m glad I went, but it’s kinda sad that it didn’t work. I still have demons manifesting.

I have one friend I’ve talked to about it. She said, you’re looking outside yourself for someone else to deliver you. You need to do things your own way. What works for someone else might not be what you need to do.

I don’t know what to think about that. If I could figure out how to deliver myself from these demons I would have a really long time ago.

The prayer points from Mountain Fire Ministries do work, I mean, when I pray them my leg starts shaking and I know I’m shaking out demons.

Sometimes I will pray my own thoughts and I know I’ve hit a nerve when something gags me.

Sometimes I’ll hear the demons growl behind my voice.

I don’t like it when they manifest, but it also may be easier to get rid of them… I don’t know, I’ve not successfully gotten rid of all of them before.

Except for when I’ve been manic. I go into super spiritual mode.

There has to be a way I can do this, defeat the spirit husbands, without going manic.

Fasting will be key, I know.

I’m not like the greatest fan of fasting, I know I talk about it a lot, but I like to eat a lot, and depriving myself from food is, can be, hard. Although day two you lose your desire to eat. I’ve never gotten past day three, well, with partial fasts, sun up to sun down, I made it 8 days, but I do want to do a four day fast and a five day fast soon. I have a feeling I need to fast 5 days to kick these demons away. If that’s not enough, I’ll fast longer. But… my mom thinks I get too weak when I fast and won’t let me do anything outside the house after day 3 of fasting. She doesn’t understand, fasting of course makes you weak, you depend on God for strength more.

Oh, I know why you dry fast for the deliverance weekend now. It would not be pretty if you were in a room with 40 others all throwing up chunks, ewwww, so gross.

Anyhow… there was this other deliverance ministry that had a free session that Friday night that I wonder if I’d gone to would it have helped more… but I can’t think like that.

Oh, God did give me a dream of revelation about things though.

I had an old friend looking at a watch head, and he didn’t know whose it was. I took it and looked at it, and it had strange markings on the back, and I thought I wonder if this is Masonic. So I brought it to my friend and asked him, and he said where did you find this, it’s mine, yes it’s Masonic. I threw it at him and said thanks now I’ve handled a cursed object.

Some of yall might not know the Freemasons are actually bad, and bring a curse on their families.

I’m not sure how to throw back the curse onto the guy I know who’s a Freemason. I did touch his ring the first time we went out. I didn’t know as much about Freemasons then, but I would never date or marry one, that’s for sure.

Anyhow… I need wisdom about this, because I’ve told this young man God does not like Freemasonry, but he did not listen and said the strongest Christians he knows are Masons. That just means there a lot of deceived Christians and people. There are too many stories you hear from pastors in deliverance ministries about breaking curses of Freemasonry in families, you can’t ignore them.

Well… I’ve got some figuring things out to do.